Waiting

 

We wait for things expected to happen, sometimes with a toy or friend. In this age of cel phones, always with a “toy”

Harrowing

Now that is a fungus

Jesus harrowed hell. I never heard of that before Wednesday webinar. 

This was a harrowing morning. Anger and resentment discussion with A immediately followed by psych session with E. A and JPG to BJ’s to pick up a shredder as soon as I got back. Fun “playing” with it on their return. A exhausted and hungry. Told me S already called. Her world falling apart over doctors. He’s napping now slouched on couch now in garage. Beautiful weather  also to As on way to work  

One big happy…

Busy, Sleepy, breezy

 

Just the front. Back is pinned up

Cut my own hair this am  am’ gonna love it…not  

Met and agreed to wall contractor w DH, 4k +600 for extra loan  Use the old brick  

Talked to Liz  Walked and conversed w/Ply, we have a lot in common  I like what I’ve seen so far  

VG transaction— will I get that sexy Scion JPG texted me?

NW came to do yard work same time as T from D lawn service. He had to postpone back yard til tomorrow. 

Exhilarating weather, heavy winds and rain showers. No AC on today that’s good  

Baruch will be at family reunion and Miss webinar next 3 weeks. I don’t know if I can stand that given all the Crazies in the group 

People and projects

 

Falling down

As planned, calls to masons, landscapers, one visit from Charlie of Cornerstone, who can’t start til spring, is 65, works with son and 20+yesr employee.  Called Carbone as promised to say I can’t commit yet. Appt w Harmon tomorrow and maybe Derrick. Then Jesse? Next Wednesday.

JPD came over to see if he could fix the paper shredder. It will be replacing since it was never oiled, and since people never know, they need to oil it he says  He and A will shop for one on Friday.  I really hate paper shredding and don’t know why I get stuck with it since A’s name is all over the papers. We had a long chat before he went home for lunch 

  Watched TV for a couple hours then heard from us regarding her immediately scheduled memo today;  she will need more follow up for a complete Phone call ended in a shouting aimed at me after I shouted into my phone to the third Scam, call. I got today from the same people take me off their list, I’m in the middle of hearing about possible cancer diagnosis in my daughter. Of course she’s right I shouldn’t have said a word, but those people are really getting on my nerves apparently 

Missed again

  

May I have another nugget, sir?

No post yesterday. Think I binge watched Belgravia most of the day. Did unfold and pact fabric shoebox for A   Webinar on love part deux last night, I brought up loving the  unlovable. Had a visit from C and Nola late after her return from UNH with daughter. 

     This am wrapped for PO I’s musical machine. Bolixed a couple of times, used up all the tape, so finished at PO. Bought more tape. Went to McD, drank sugary frappe, I thought I swore off them, now for real if I don’t forget. Burger and nuggets in park with Red and A. 

91° day, but it was pleasant enough overcast with a very pink light sunset sky tonight. Red offended a couple of dogs on Harrisburg at 7:30 AM walk. Oh well.  

  Good webinar today I actually enjoyed Stephon which is all he. really wants. I didn’t talk for an hour and I didn’t read beforehand; felt  great. Unser Deutsch Freundin sind im Portugal. We sang some responses very fun and funny. 

    I afterwards spoke briefly to I then An hour and 45 minutes with C and L. Which seems like a wonderful psychology session with me as listening, neutral force, and them alternating between active and passive. Seemed to clear the air between them quite a bit. He also gave me some advice on the retaining wall problem, especially regarding cost and workmen  

   Good news from S: Two medical doctors found to help her with a lump in her breast. 

   Resting after dinner now. Not enough attention to darling Red today,  I think.

    Lindsey Graham only 71, died Saturday night of a heart attack, my disease.  Scott Glenn died yesterday or today at 78, my age  I feel soberly, somberly mortal now. Hard to say RIP both when it could be me or A any precious moment  

Fine weather again

 

East and Beach toward Falmouth, Thursday

I love this picture

It is the family of

Victoria Wu of Mei Mei Teas

In Chengdu about 30-40 yrs ago

This is the kind of day we wait for all winter.  Slow start to the morning, but a lovely, 6 AM walk with Red. Odd I feel unspoken internal nagging about not doing work and my rejections of it that make me feel negative. And I want to worry about spending 25k on the yard. Did call for another estimate just now. Also ordered groceries. G webinar in a few minutes. See if that has an effect. 

No work at all today

May I please have another

Muddy debris from the river

I feel so guilty. A says not too

Met and anticipating quote on wall repair. JC Custom mating 20 to 25,000. Yikes. Plus, we need a new roof next year about 10 K  Good grief!

Watched movie, Ballerina from John Wick world  I liked it 

We went to Chick-fil-A And took it to the park for supper    City not keeping the shrubbery Cut down on the trail so you can’t see the river. Beautiful weather, however  And spoke to DJ. Many limbs down from storms yesterday in Columbus area  So he had clean up  Kindling for his fire pit

Starts early

 

Waiting room, 7-10-26

Flamingo lily. 

  

S called at 6:15 am, just from ER. Golf ball size lump developed in her breast. They said get a mammogram. She said doc not willing to treat her, no offer of imaging, gave her a phone# for pcp referral.  Her pcp was suspended. She usually got mammo with self referral, by law, she insists and I think she’s correct. She also will check with Convenient Care and I said ask if their docs can be pcps, I heard they could. Also said don’t discuss her complaints about doctors and set her off from calm to rage, starting with “don’t lecture me”. She hung up on me. 

    I associated my absence from RB webs this week , associating my dread of dealing with Stephon who is only one of the many problematic people I seem to deal with all the time, painfully 

     I also reacted to A. It’s painful to deal with his reactions and repetitions and vocal tone. I cut him off often and he feels it, but I don’t know what else to do. Like when I told S, “I’m tired of hearing you talk

     But the day is a beauty, and I’m comfortable at the infusion clinic right now. Met Dave who has been coming here 8 years ,  a frequent flyer he said. Struck me how friendly and patient he is, that people could be if they chose.  Asked my name, great way to engage with strangers. Wish my dear ones would employee it. 

     N will come after noon, and I’m expecting two landscapers to evaluate and quote a fix for the retaining wall today or tomorrow.

     Before I left the infusion center, an old man fell down and banged his head perhaps leaving blood and a bruise, although I didn’t see that. Sounded like a huge plate of dishes, dropping in a restaurant. Then all the nurses jumped and ran, crying out call 911. That’s struck me as ironic, sine most of the people in there are nurses surrounded by doctors in three buildings, but none of them with the right specialty—ER. Man’s wife was the infusion patient and they settled him in a wheelchair next to her while they got her treatment going  Parameds came in, and I was again impressed by the quality and compassion of their work. Talking to Liz later, she said they are grossly underpaid  The man’s wife was dismayed of course, repeating that he keeps falling down. Med report recorded 2 falls in the last year, one with injured rib.  But he still. needed to drive them home since she could not, so declined to go to hospital for check up. Getting old creates such foreseeable problems. 

Missing my grandson

 

So Five Guys and the Ws 

went to East End Beach

For supper and we beat 

the 91° heat

Thank you, Lord, for your wonderful natural air-conditioning. It was so fine to see so many people out, enjoying the wonderful summer weather, too. Contrasted with my grumpy days lately, including today  

  Thank you for F and her mom visiting me while work was being done on their house. Thank you for the Work who came to your house today and fix the garage door and for Englishmen who fascinated A as they sold us blinds. 

Another encouraging note from Baruch. Bless him, and bless my dear kin IJN

  Fatigued but must say a good day, all in all. 

Start up

  

This evening, C stopped to greet us

C is starting up his own business, washing garbage cans. Good luck to him. 

Active day, started with paper sorting in the garage and a visit from F and her mom before their trip to a butterfly farm. Then Fe infusion to noon thirty and N came to do yard work. I stepped into bucket of stagnant water. Lol. A and Nola stopped in for a visit. We rested up after the yardwork  Before dinner red and I walked and met up with HF and P and then C. Home prepared supper and sat out a few minutes  Did not go to webinar tonight either.  R sent me a note.   Really very achy and tired  seems like all day   

Two men in infusions clinic today:  in pain. Must be cancer., with talk of Keytruda and “port”. One lamented his age and never expecting the change wrought in two years: hiking Rockies then; couldn’t fly tomorrow to retrieve his truck in Dallas due to his treatment today I get it now, dealing with constant pain and unsteadiness. Sympathy for Zac.