Quite depressed today. People don’t call me as often as I wish, so l call them. So spoke to S, E, I, DJ, E. That helps. Gray morning, now rainy, plinking drip sounds. Snoring pup; his digestive system seems better. Webinar ok.
Sunday, August 30, 2026
Sorrow
Quite depressed today. People don’t call me as often as I wish, so l call them. So spoke to S, E, I, DJ, E. That helps. Gray morning, now rainy, plinking drip sounds. Snoring pup; his digestive system seems better. Webinar ok.
Saturday, August 29, 2026
A good morning
Yup and out to the dump for Hazardous Waste disposal. Not a lot of stuff, but glad to have it gone, including twenty year old kerosene. Then I worked a bit on organizing garage shelfs, specifically my rock collection. Feels better getting things done. And the weather is so perfect today.
Friday, August 28, 2026
Thursday, August 27, 2026
Say what?
815 and I’ve been awake since 255 thank you red
Very sleepy here at 1:20 on my iWatch exercise goals met. Red is very sleepy too. We went to the park to try to wake up and had a $7 strawberry Matcha. Pretty and delicious and the girl in the truck is very beautiful She perked me up and so do the people that hang around and talk to me there Waiting for BR to repel my vermin now Stay cheerful
Wednesday, August 26, 2026
Doing the right thing
Tuesday, August 25, 2026
And next?
It just keeps getting better and better doesn’t it? Poor little Red has been sick for over 24 hours: digestive system. Up at 2 AM up at 4 AM for outdoor and cleanups. Poor guy. All he’s eating is grass Must see a vet today for sure but it’ll probably be the ER one. One more surprise for me around 7:30: Bent over to put lotion on my calf and fell backwards into the bathtub, landed on my butt, caught with my hands, but it took me a while to figure out how to get out of the tub from that position, after I caught my breath. Thank you, Jesus for safe deliverance
Monday, August 24, 2026
New day
We will see what what combination of despair and hope it brings, for each and all. God help us.
Sunday, August 23, 2026
Roll out. A bit late
Saturday, August 22, 2026
Gray morning, sleepy
Sleepy all day it turned out. A went to BJ’s with PG. We talked to I who is back at school in a suite with three roommates which may be very good for him. 14th floor!!! however. He checked in about 9 AM. Then we spoke to E who gave us those details. Drove at start of misty rain to DQ—McD line too long at 3 pm—then to the park just as it stopped. Drive, walk, and eat—how yesterday for me, not to mention unsafe. African boy on a motorized bicycle buzzed by, very scary. The speed he went. A saw him too, coming and going. I asked three then a fourth Hispanic youths about an Abandoned bicycle by the railroad track bridge. I don’t think they understood me I called public safety to come and collect it. The fourth kid was sitting on the steps of the bridge smoking the foul Doobie. He looked like a 12 year-old and I said a little young for that, aren’t you? He just gave me an embarrassed grin. Did not know anything about the other bicycle don’t think he even saw it there 6 feet away from him. I told him he probably better move on before the policeman came by and saw him He passed by as we reached the car. Never know who you will meet in the park these days Can be very interesting came home and went home and mostly went to sleep again like all morning sleeping all day sleeping all night
Heard from S by text She put me in my place And I guess I owe her thanks since I know how we stand, but it’s still difficult I really have to attend to how much I want to make this about me which I think is not so very much but more than is necessary. Especially in regard to sharing with other people the situation with others.
To quote her,
, I’ve had to take care of myself, without you, throughout a lot of hard stuff. Perhaps the dogs sensitizes you. You’re stepping in, though the concern is appreciated, causes further irritation and aggravation.
Honestly, your bedside manner is terrible and I do not share your mindset and logic.
As for last night, you didn’t have a thing to do with that upset. When I’m upset it’s best to back off, know when to quit, don’t further harangue and provoke.
She’s absolutely right, although it stings, since it names my buffered characteristic of making everything about me.
Then now I’m back to worrying in my own end of life, materialistic disposal concerns without actually doing anything about them I am advised people can help you, but I don’t find people who do, as I people who give the advice seems like that’s an honest concern anyway
Went to PSC last night. The dank smell and hard chairs sent me home early. Really just intended to inform them of my current situation, I think, since I’m not likely to attend much more, if at all. All my religious groups arevgiven up now I think, probably to my detriment.
Watched new YouTube post and subscribed to Daichi, a 23 year old making his way in life in Tokyo. So real, so much like My grandson’s life stage. God bless him, God bless them both
I can’t figure out how to do a link so you look for him yourself on YouTube:
Friday, August 21, 2026
Reaching out
Text to B and T C now:
Hello, I have been thinking about you both this summer and B and family. I’m rather depressed however so not up for a phone call yet But I do want to let you know that my daughter S just discovered she has breast cancer. This will be difficult for us because she has no friends or family to help her through it and we are so old and far away that I’m not sure how much help we will be for her. I know you will keep us in your thoughts and prayers. And I cherish the idea that you are my mother‘s sister. There is still connection among us all as long as there is life and beyond. Love Sandy