Blow or glow?

 

Almost Halloween

Burned the beans. Cornbread hood. Dinner turned out ok

Thanks for food, Lord. And good weather. And sisters and neighbors And A

  Patrice said on web people just want to blow. Or was it glow?  In regard to computer age/ devices 

Phoned S to 10:40 to say goodnight. (and make sure she’s alive). How was your day?  “I had a pretty good day. “I just didn’t want to talk to the three little pigs. Take a day off.” OK. Click.  

Lord have mercy. 

I was whining. A said behavior counts. 

Unforglven. And sticky

The culprit Scpic today

Well, how could a daughter possibly forgive a mother who is an “airhead” and who does not take directions well and who never cared?  

I don’t remember a lot of things and it doesn’t pay to ask, regardless of how traumatic they were for her. Or other people  My bad memory may, I think, be a way of handling my own trauma, which never seems to end. And I pray Jesus for strength and helpers to see this life through to its proper end and not just give up. 

Not well today, she said; her ire raised the hen I didn’t know that she cervical displasia 2013 which would have been cancer in another month, had some chemo? And definitely surgery, going home post op on a bus  she saved an abused child calling DHS after a fellow rider said he heard a neighbor discuss making child porn 

So maybe she has good reason to accuse me as she does.  Except I can’t say why I forget  but I do

Woke up at 3:30 am when she messaged beautiful pics of a massive vegetable quiche she made. Fell back to sleep for an hour about 10am. This is annoying but funny and even scary. I had a Werthers hard caramel between my cheek and gum when I woke up, certainly did not remember putting it in my mouth. Lucky I did not swallow and choke. But the smell stupid funny bit was that I had slobbered for that hour , leaving 3/4 inch stocky wet spot inside the brown fleece anorak that I “never wear” but bid today. Intending onto give it away but not clean that up!

And I’d better lay off the candy

T&S had a Halloween party   Only saw 3 or 4 guests arriving in costume  Gladstone’s uber strong pot nearly knocked me over from across the street 

Dewey “ran away from home” and dropped in here an hour ago, just as Red did to Luca’s house while I was putting supper in the oven

Red and I walked in the schoolyard and shopped at Walmart today  I’m veery sleepy now waiting for C and Nola

Swearing

S’s vegetables, her pic

 Phone call devolved into high screech about bullying. Not allowed to say tone it down a notch we’re not against you. All because I mentioned the neighbors pale blue  No hate in Wbk sign. She was bullied and can’t forget or forgive or reconcile herself. What good does eternal victimhood serve?  Pitiable, but unless revenge is possible and effective, all lose. Guess that’s why I like the Equalizer movies. And we have Avengers stories. It comes back to the sinful nature of humanity. And ubiquity of suffering.  

Dump it on someone else and rationalize by admitting to “a little” profanity without acknowledging voice pitch or speed or volume. Or their effect on any of us. “A stream of the old rancid,” Maggie Smith denominated it in an old Poirot movie. But not a management tactic here. Only as A called it, hysteria, and fuel for future outbursts. 

Crotchety

 

Riverbank Trail yesterday

That’s me. Crotchety  but a am grateful for this beautiful autumn days, for friendly neighbors and their dogs, for home, town and country, for family, for moments of peace. 

Yard crew here today.

 

So much yummier, as Catwoman said 

Tidy

Now that’s a back yard, Daichi!

Thank you, Brody, and God bless you all. New men, one silent Latino, and Caz-Cazden—“my mom made it up .”

Refraction, reflection, whatever

 

Morning light

German webinar today went very well. Red and I walked the usual neighborhood path. Watched a Statham movie— not proud of it, but I like him

Wait for daylight

  

Rippling water in the park Sunday

Many events today. Started with Health insurance applications. Very good Aon Agent. JG came over and brought us a Trump dollar coin. He stayed to help me straighten out my Nighthawk app and setup. Watched TV and fell asleep a while  after that.  Finally got Red over to the schoolyard Then A and I cooked supper, chicken sandwiches and canned soup very good, who knew. Pictures of S with much hair loss plus wearing new wig, cute. Like a Mona Lisa waif. But it made me so sad

Icky

 

Two days ago

Imposition webinar and I offend. Japanese system says give up relationships that don’t serve you. So back up. Restate. 

Across the world

 

Daichi in Japan, supper 24 hours ago

I love this young man through his videos on YouTube. God bless him and his video work

  I did get pills packed, health insurance reviewed, took Julio to de schoolyard, 

Busy, busy, busy

 

Moist again today

Only one walk with Me and Red. A lot of ceiling at the computer setting up and frustrated by Aon PW‘s and IDs. Then call to doc’s offices Because DMV is requiring statements regarding my sleep apnea and, new, Arrhythmias. Where did they get their information? What’s up with the hippa laws not applying to the state and them using them against us, eg licensing?  Of course JG has that problem big time, poor lad. 

   S says she’s feeling better today, but that RR visit was scary for all of us. TNJ for each day of apparent healing. 

     A and I cooked haddock chowder tonight. The frozen prod—fish— is really good. Individually wrapped real fillets. 

    Spoke to L on phone; she’s house sitting for KB who’s doing Va midwestern foliage tour. 

    After the slump yesterday, today is satisfying. TNJ