Something

 

Decay

Some good things come from the struggle.  Great talk with I  yesterday about his life, his mother, his father. Will there be any permanent good effect?  Too much to ask. JP drove I around an hour and a half.

    Hot day. I couldn’t walk. 

Symptoms

 

Did I mention I hate the way I look

    This daily life is no longer a habit since I is visiting me.  Us. I am certainly acting more like a first sergeant giving orders all day again, and I don’t like myself this way and neither do they but I can’t seem to stop it  I see anxiety, and want to smooth it out and make it go away. How much can I really do? But I have to make the effort. My body is not functioning. Well, I’m having difficulty walking different parts of the day. I have sneezing and postnasal drip. In my a fib is just very uncomfortable.  I’m spending money like I have it. I’m trying to get house repairs done and talking to people hiring them which is not comfortable for me either.  I’m Inattentive on my webinars and I can’t say I’m working on Myself. I’m arguing with ALLAN a lot and giving him orders which I don’t like to do  This is all personality and not a pleasant one

Don’t forget today

  

I like it

 To post I mean. Busy busy day payments  to S and C b Walmart shopping. Sofa deliveryNW gardening with Ian. D re retaining wall

Time keeps slipping by

   

Tuesday in the park with A

   Many activities daily, I’m the initiator in all of them. It wears me out. Weak right thigh, evening Afib, phone money argument with S are big complaints of the day. Let me tell you what to do and think. Are you even listening? Not much time left together, I think. Suffering is reality I think Robin said today in webinar. After Kundabuffer, perceiving all things upside down, which must be our twisting for happiness, self calming, self satisfaction.

Forgot!

 

Chef du just

Went to movie today after we cleaned out gatage a while. Driving issues

Nice morning

 

On the trail, by the factory, just across 

The street from the store, turns out

 All the boys walked the “hood twice briefly.9   I read to me,  Hedge Knight. I drove us  to Park, Red and I walked nearly a mile, encountering Kevin with the guitar and 2/3 dogs. I walked to Julie York’s store, Weekend Anime then returned with us to the parking lot. Can’t wake up since our return, any of us. Rain started when we got home. Too lethargic. Need to plan on cleaning tomorrow. Same kind of weather day forecast. 

Rainy sleepy day

 

Little dog can’t wake up this morning 

Should clear up sometime by the afternoon, but very cold and raining now; welcome to Maine, grandson. Doubtless a change from Georgia  I asked  A, when would you say the leaves burst out?  a week ago or two weeks? I forget. About the only sign of summer right  now, except for those two hot days last week, and I like that less than this weather; I have the stove on this morning very pleasant. I is still very tired—disregulated sleep, he says. But we went out, Red, me, and I, letting him drive to Staples by airport and to mall. Ate lunch there and went to arcade, only entrance outdoors. Inconvenient and overstimulating—noise to deafen. I spent 30 or 40$ on claw machines which was 40 percent of their “Entertainments” and wound up with 3 50 Cent toys for his girlfriend. I told him about the last time I warned him about wasting money on those machines  Certainly didn’t stick  We were in a movie theater here after going to two or three arcades and not finding one open when he was probably 10 or 12 years old.  Oh well. Guess I compensated with a one dollar ice cream cone that must’ve had a pint of ice cream on it  Certainly couldn’t eat it all  But I was glad to be out with him doing something that he normally enjoys

He read the hedge Knight beginning to meet at home that night talk to his girlfriend and Suzy on the phone and walked the dog with me. I think I’m giving him too many orders. 

He cooked a delicious dinner with my supervision:  steak, squash, greenbeans, a bit of watermelon and strawberries plus rolls and baked potato and choc cake for granddad.

Allan got highly stressed and unhappy with S’s disrespectful even abusive phone call, this braced with accusations that we are “filtering” her calls and contact with  I  i’d like to say I totally don’t but I think I do somewhat and I give unwarranted advice which she hates. I forget what she called them.grandma’s interjections

I don’t feel like cleaning house in this cold wet weather so I keep putting it off. We’ll get around to it.

Worth every penny?!!!

The smile is

Good morning

Needs work. Wednesday 

 Big doins today

I arrived safely and on time. Then I or BK totally botched lunch order. But everyone got fed after I “apologized profusely”. Mostly sorry for folks behind me. Now A and I are napping in the sunroom and he’s upstairs with his computer  Poor kid  like visiting a nursing home I think  we just don’t have much energy  

Airport 1:15, normal flight

So damn handsome!

Very busy

 

Across from doctors offices today

Energy level good all day. Muscles and joints functioning finish tomorrow 

Because blogger dropped my whole entry du jour. as has happened before 

So to repeat myself, if I can remember

Up very early. Made call to Hub ok to exchange couch. Red walk in sunshine ended abruptlyin showers.  B from Terminix came by with 4 more sticky traps.  Had a little time to go to Hub so picked a blue traditional couch, also little red table and brought that home with 3 pillows. Finished Reds walk down town. Went to SP for a mammo But had to postpone it because I had forgotten I was wearing the Zio. Went to pet food store And spent $100 plus on kibble and a couple of treats!!! Whoaa!  Stopped at McDonald’s and had ice cream cone and frappe for lunch. Very tasty. then home   Talked to neighbor s A  and A. Esp about contractors and move. Cooked supper later. Didn’t watch the TV all day. C visited with Nola in the evening  Pretty good energy level with just a couple of naps

Today

 

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