Ibrahim the rude

 

Something else ugly 9-17-26 Webster park

So I’ve made it a goal to declutter something every day. Yesterday and today I took down all the old picture frames from the garage and a few other items and bagged them for Goodwill.  Baggy old snaggletoothed Ibrahim was collecting from the cars today. He asked what the frames were and announced all this stuff was trash.  Trash?!! I told him I bought most of it here except those loose frames cost me $300 even if they need to be put together. Artists buy them.  Later I wished I had told him, they must take trash; they took you. I kept thinking about the rumor. Shekinah wants to start a “go back to your country” T-shirt line, too.

Glad I turned the other cheek instead. But Lord have mercy on all of us!  You really love us, fools that we all are, Some Announcing out loud, others keeping their meanness inside. 

Nought to say yet

 

Don’t have to go far to find glory

So peaceful I hear a goose honking and Red barking and the 6 or 8th. Airplane takeoff. Grant them all safe journeys and thanks again for the FlyDubai save

  Evening now and I’m very tired. If I ask, where is my sensation now it’s in all pains in my shoulders and feet and lower back and neck  Doesn’t feel like any glory there just a sense of getting old and having I’m not very good heart pumping low energy all the time it seems like

  I fixed chowder tonight and it was not all that good and a lot of work  The cod fell apart, totally. My two cans of evaporated milk we’re outdated so I had to run to the local convenience store which fortunately I just opened on Monday to see if they have anything  They have an offbrand half-and-half, which I bought, and which tasted like an offbrand, which I boiled anyway  I enjoyed meeting the young Indian man working behind the counter. He said he is from Surat, A diamond city,  and I looked up where it is.  In the crease on eastern half of the Country although he said it was north. He says it’s not too hot, nice river. Wiki post looked good. 

   No PSC tonight. I’m too tired to be there anyway  But I wonder what the alternative meeting they said was being held i.

New car for now

 

Picking up car rental 

Odd foggy am melted away to beautiful summery day. I was in Afib and awake. 4:30-7:09 am approximately. Contacted D about making end of life plans. Will see her about 10-9 or 10. Business with Caliber Collision including Enterprise car rental on which they dropped the ball but recovered by giving me another person’s rental, agreeing she was late and only needed her mirror repaired. I didn’t feel so good about that especially after I saw her  She reminded me of C and how she always gets taken advantage of because of people’s class assumptions. I heard them confirming with her that she did not need a rental, however, and they would fix her mirror immediately that day  I left it that way however and just hope everything worked out OK  JG was with me. We stopped at BJ’s and bought pie and cookies and salad   He said he can take a look at my old toys and maybe sell them for me  That would be good. He was very talkative about his personal life too. 

Active morning

 

160 even, but not a pretty sight

(Not nude, if you’re wondering)

Now I’m a bit tired   Texted JC   Called DL regarding clearing out my mineral collection.  Decluttered CPAP equipment. Lordy, I should not have to order another thing for a year!  

    JG s Visit with A for the Red Sox game last made ME so happy!  Listening to them converse just lit up my heart Before I fell asleep To their sounds. It reminded me of feelings from parties, and I don’t know the last time I was at a party, especially here at home. 

It’s raining again. 

Yikes

 

Street detritus. Rust  today

Accomplished all the tasks on today’s to do list. Feels great. But I’m tired. A bit dizzy a couple of times in the last two hours. Notifications said I was in Afib 70% Of the time last week. Last week it said 50% of the week before. Yikes indeed. And Dr L said I was in a fib during my exam a couple of weeks ago.  But my cardiologist don’t seem to take these readings too seriously over the past year ; not sure whether to call them or not. I really am afraid of heart attack., like at 4am in bed in Orono  9-17.  I will probably call but must deal with the car Thursday. I’m also worried/afraid I may lose my drivers license and have no driver in the house. Lord help me!  

Que sera, sera

 

Abed.  Now

More rain all day. Yesterday and today. Red doesn’t love it. But it has its pleasant quietude.

Lee says today, and I hope he’s right:

I see that despite my inadequacy, 

I am penetrated by love. 

It has come here to help. 

Japanese decluttering advice:

  The special occasion you’re waiting for is the day you are already in  ( Use it or dispose it

   Do not let your stuff become someone else’s burden

     

Not so bad so far

Milkweed pod at 5Guys Thursday 

Beware that mixture of boredom, fear and depression

A woman pulled out her car in front of me on Main Street yesterday day and just stared right into my eyes as if daring me to say a word. How word and ironic after Thursday crash

Gray day

Field full of little kids recreating 

Waters tranquil

Lots of rain and possibly a northeaster predicted. We went to the park and bought Subway for lunch not much of a walk, but very satisfying S reports she’s doing well today

We need this now? Really?

Samaeo M

Met an African with a crippled foot in an unexpected and sorry way.  T-boned at a four way stop.  I took the blame. I ran a stop sign. BUT. He was turning left and did not see me?  Why was I talking for him to the officer?  Because of his stearner demeanor?  He was trying to help me, I think, but I wasn’t getting the hints at the time. ME has some law about at fault if you can stop an accident but don’t, I think. I did not get a citation so far. But could I lose my license?We’ll see. Filed claims while we waited for police. Spoke to HM rep today .  Will go with JG to auto body shop Monday. Caliber on Forest Ave. 

   I really want to stop driving, but not going places.

New day

 

On my walk yesterday 

In the orchard today

S’s orchard pics today

It’s exactly a week to the hour that u arrived by obus last week in S’s town. We immediately did “retail therapy” at Home Goods, taking back a fringed blue suede hassock (!!! I can’t say no these days) and $15 worth of junk snacks that I brought back Friday and am still eating. Thank goodness I didn’t scarf them down all at once. My weight is consistently hovering at 160 lb. Guess that’s a good thing. Days are chilling but beautifully sunny. Darkness comes way too early. And she’s on my mind pretty constantly. Gif be with us 

  She had a good day today. Went to an orchard and brought home apples for sauce, canned pickled vegetables and fresh squash. God grant her pease and rest and healing IJN