Wait for daylight

  

Rippling water in the park Sunday

Icky

 

Two days ago

Imposition webinar and I offend. Japanese system says give up relationships that don’t serve you. So back up. Restate. 

Across the world

 

Daichi in Japan, supper 24 hours ago

I love this young man through his videos on YouTube. God bless him and his video work

  I did get pills packed, health insurance reviewed, took Julio to de schoolyard, 

Busy, busy, busy

 

Moist again today

Only one walk with Me and Red. A lot of ceiling at the computer setting up and frustrated by Aon PW‘s and IDs. Then call to doc’s offices Because DMV is requiring statements regarding my sleep apnea and, new, Arrhythmias. Where did they get their information? What’s up with the hippa laws not applying to the state and them using them against us, eg licensing?  Of course JG has that problem big time, poor lad. 

   S says she’s feeling better today, but that RR visit was scary for all of us. TNJ for each day of apparent healing. 

     A and I cooked haddock chowder tonight. The frozen prod—fish— is really good. Individually wrapped real fillets. 

    Spoke to L on phone; she’s house sitting for KB who’s doing Va midwestern foliage tour. 

    After the slump yesterday, today is satisfying. TNJ

Hard Times, Mr Dickens

 

Down by the Riverside yesterday 

Just don’t even want to talk about them today. Perhaps tomorrow

Exhausted. Red, to groomer, then grocery shopping, dead sleep nap, picked up Red and walked him. To O for first hair appointment. She double booked!  I did not know that term till she said she couldn’t guarantee she wouldn’t do it again  Not sure that’s gonna work for me.

P.m. now Sat ER for three hours worried about her heart and self diagnosing with me “pushing too hard”— criticizing/—via text then apologizing. 

I can’t get life right, Lord help me. Thank you. 

Lee van Lear daily Five Substack today, “everything here now” today:

The sensation of Being 

establishes the ground floor for every event in life 

and without it nothing lasts. 

The breath nourishes the roots of this sensation. 

And I become more whole. 

This sensation of being is what creates my individuality. 

An undivided perception of being. 

Everything here. 

In one place. Now. 

In this way, I am more prepared 

both to live and to receive this life. 

Many things become possible from this place 

which are impossible from any other place

including the development of a relationship 

with real feeling 

and the awakening of conscience. 

In contrast—not sunny

 

Back yard early

But we we’ll see what the day brings. Already had a wonderful episode of the Flaubert Report, my favorite from Lee. And the beneficence of Castor oil;  nasty I know, but I’m truly grateful  A&E conference starts today although I’m not going to participate. Webinar tonight. Busy hair day tomorrow for  both Red and me. 

New looks:

C’s birthday. She said these are her chemo curls.

S’s new glasses. First ones, progressives

Rainy day blues?

 

Another autumn still life, yesterday

So pretty, on Sac trail

We have and will have steady cold rain until tomorrow evening. It’s pleasant actually but niggles my mind to be tranquil about not walking or cleaning or decluttering. 

   Check out Catholic charities and Southern Maine agency on aging for helpers didn’t get very far. Do you need to get into Aon? Maybe tomorrow Thursday and Friday will be very busy. Hope my car is ready as promised Friday

Come back

 

Hit the floor.

 More comfy than the bed?!!

Calmer day

 

Autumn still life, today on our walk

  3:30 am heart to heart with A really eased my overwhelm tremendously. Lawyer, D, came down to help. It’s not an in alloyed help, but I won’t go into to the vagaries of that relationship. 

   The rain is peaceful tonight. I’m walking less. I posted a new album on his YouTube channel, really good music. S is visiting by phone. A blessed day. 

Good night/ good morning

 

WHS from shortcut walk 

to Hannaford long before bedtime