Watching: bad movie from yesterday— how do those actors live with themselves?—Fox news commentary on working, earning Americans and envious “takers.” YouTube feeds and me trying to boost $ & # for my “two boys,” CursedSk1y and Daichi (how long will this last?).
Busy day today started out raining now sunny for the occasional clouds, threatening more rain, but overall very pleasant, except somebody is burning wood and it smells terrible.
Get the furniture reset on the newly painted deck with no problem from furniture
Vacuumed house and prep for a visit from K. Gave away two paintings, one my pastel from New Orleans, the other a small watercolor by a different artist. Lovely visit
Spell to S. Texts from DJ about OSU game Feels like a terrific Labor Day weekend
Don’t love my haircut this month. Do I go back or just wait six weeks? We’ll see. I started cutting on it on my own actually. Red to the groomer today, then an and I went grocery shopping. Delicious muffins I’m definitely eating more and more sugar, especially
Lord, I am thankful I live in an era of cleanliness and Sanitation. I watched a short vid about cowboy stench And realize most of time was like that. One commentator said if everyone stinks then nobody stinks. But that just can’t be true Thank you, Lord, for good grooming.
Red barfed shortly after his little breakfast with meds. So he probably lost the meds too. We postponed his shots to Saturday. Will go to bank to make a big deposit for S.
I think that means I feel panicky, but I’m not sure why
Yup and out to the dump for Hazardous Waste disposal. Not a lot of stuff, but glad to have it gone, including twenty year old kerosene. Then I worked a bit on organizing garage shelfs, specifically my rock collection. Feels better getting things done. And the weather is so perfect today.
815 and I’ve been awake since 255 thank you red
Very sleepy here at 1:20 on my iWatch exercise goals met. Red is very sleepy too. We went to the park to try to wake up and had a $7 strawberry Matcha. Pretty and delicious and the girl in the truck is very beautiful She perked me up and so do the people that hang around and talk to me there Waiting for BR to repel my vermin now Stay cheerful
It just keeps getting better and better doesn’t it? Poor little Red has been sick for over 24 hours: digestive system. Up at 2 AM up at 4 AM for outdoor and cleanups. Poor guy. All he’s eating is grass Must see a vet today for sure but it’ll probably be the ER one. One more surprise for me around 7:30: Bent over to put lotion on my calf and fell backwards into the bathtub, landed on my butt, caught with my hands, but it took me a while to figure out how to get out of the tub from that position, after I caught my breath. Thank you, Jesus for safe deliverance
We will see what what combination of despair and hope it brings, for each and all. God help us.
Sleepy all day it turned out. A went to BJ’s with PG. We talked to I who is back at school in a suite with three roommates which may be very good for him. 14th floor!!! however. He checked in about 9 AM. Then we spoke to E who gave us those details. Drove at start of misty rain to DQ—McD line too long at 3 pm—then to the park just as it stopped. Drive, walk, and eat—how yesterday for me, not to mention unsafe. African boy on a motorized bicycle buzzed by, very scary. The speed he went. A saw him too, coming and going. I asked three then a fourth Hispanic youths about an Abandoned bicycle by the railroad track bridge. I don’t think they understood me I called public safety to come and collect it. The fourth kid was sitting on the steps of the bridge smoking the foul Doobie. He looked like a 12 year-old and I said a little young for that, aren’t you? He just gave me an embarrassed grin. Did not know anything about the other bicycle don’t think he even saw it there 6 feet away from him. I told him he probably better move on before the policeman came by and saw him He passed by as we reached the car. Never know who you will meet in the park these days Can be very interesting came home and went home and mostly went to sleep again like all morning sleeping all day sleeping all night
Heard from S by text She put me in my place And I guess I owe her thanks since I know how we stand, but it’s still difficult I really have to attend to how much I want to make this about me which I think is not so very much but more than is necessary. Especially in regard to sharing with other people the situation with others.
To quote her,
, I’ve had to take care of myself, without you, throughout a lot of hard stuff. Perhaps the dogs sensitizes you. You’re stepping in, though the concern is appreciated, causes further irritation and aggravation.
Honestly, your bedside manner is terrible and I do not share your mindset and logic.
As for last night, you didn’t have a thing to do with that upset. When I’m upset it’s best to back off, know when to quit, don’t further harangue and provoke.
She’s absolutely right, although it stings, since it names my buffered characteristic of making everything about me.
Then now I’m back to worrying in my own end of life, materialistic disposal concerns without actually doing anything about them I am advised people can help you, but I don’t find people who do, as I people who give the advice seems like that’s an honest concern anyway
Went to PSC last night. The dank smell and hard chairs sent me home early. Really just intended to inform them of my current situation, I think, since I’m not likely to attend much more, if at all. All my religious groups arevgiven up now I think, probably to my detriment.
Watched new YouTube post and subscribed to Daichi, a 23 year old making his way in life in Tokyo. So real, so much like My grandson’s life stage. God bless him, God bless them both
I can’t figure out how to do a link so you look for him yourself on YouTube:
Text to B and T C now:
Hello, I have been thinking about you both this summer and B and family. I’m rather depressed however so not up for a phone call yet But I do want to let you know that my daughter S just discovered she has breast cancer. This will be difficult for us because she has no friends or family to help her through it and we are so old and far away that I’m not sure how much help we will be for her. I know you will keep us in your thoughts and prayers. And I cherish the idea that you are my mother‘s sister. There is still connection among us all as long as there is life and beyond. Love Sandy
Asleep at 9:15. Awake at 1:10. Texting S so she must be rather anxcious. Then Red was sick to his stomach, clean up duty. 3:06 now. It’s been a full morning already. Best wishes to all those I love who can’t sleep.
Finally dozed off about 530 to 7 AM Thought I would be too tired to get out of my own way all day, but I’m OK Took red to You Dirty Dog for a bath. D there recommended a groomer in Oak Hill plaza And start using a halter I may take her up on both I really like her business and her We stopped at McDonald’s and the school yard on the way home so for me it was a fun day
Spent too much time on sudoku, thinking it would put me back to sleep, but of course it did not this time
S is kindly checking with S to ask if She would like to connect with her niece K who is currently being treated. I hope she does
Finished the Martin blood and Fire Book. Not read anything with that many pages of years
Saw JW and his two westies, Stewart and Sproket, yesterday afternoon, first time in a while. Ayla is gone.
Can’t see around the corners.Red ran out the house at 9 PM last night toward the barking and came right back with the big dog came along and asked if they could play a minute I said sure and sorry he got off leash. They started doing their twirls. Next thing I saw she was on the ground poor thing glad I didn’t fall, but I feel terrible for her. Nola was up in her driveway all this time. We went for a little walk. My heart was not in it, ping-ponging between daughters, distracted by dogs.
Bought a new mattress with S this pm
Not doing anything today. Absolutely beautiful late summer day, cool sunshine Made homemade no baked cookies; don’t need to do that again. Talked to DJ since he got home from his travels always good to talk to him Dreamt about visiting him in his house after falling back to sleep this morning Still having digestive issues, wish that would go away
That was quite an experience Chick-fil-A at the picnic table near the Muslim coffee wagon; these lovely ladies walked by And recommended the Matcha drinks, Banana bread and mango. Walked by and we chatted with him for 10 minutes or so I was sucking down The drugs of a peach milkshake. Red and I shared a few nuggets and two young African kids wanted to But were shy about handing him a chicken nugget when I offered one to them not him Obviously afraid of dog mouth. Can’t blame them Is that thunder I hear Rick said yes he better get back to his car. I decided to try the coffee stand and maybe get a little walk-in. Rain started 30 yards away so we turned back just as we ordered coffee. A downpour came along and by the time we got to the car, there was hail; we were soaked and cold. A was whingeing about the windows being down. Driving home was scary enough since the windshield was fogged up And I wasn’t sure what button would unfog it. When we got into the stream of traffic, that jerks ahead of us wouldn’t go more than about 10 miles an hour although it wasn’t that unsafe to drive At home we certainly had to dry up things, including ourselves And the sun has come in and out since we got back right now, bright sunshine and rain. The electricity just went off. So I’m sitting here with beautiful sunshine outside rain falling off the roof and no power I’m powerless
But apparently I did. Every day just seems to melt into the other not much difference in the hours certainly not the activities this morning. I took A to the grocery store and the pharmacy and Red for a very little painful walk.
For example, yesterday we did our 1 mile walk around the block early enough so I didn’t melt in the heat. I’s Monday music sounds like he’s as depressed as I am so I told his dad about it. Gotta watch out for that. He really needs professional counseling might be in order, but I can’t do anything about that anymore than any other problems in the family.
Sat around most of the day again today, but just came back from an early evening walk and it was very pleasant still 84° but a good wind, Greeted four people, including a grandmother Denise pushing her baby carriage. We walked and chatted all the way up Longfellow I rather hope we could become friends
On the heat wave, I’d saymy brain is fried. Coming to you live from the second bank of James. Don’t feel like reporting much Saw lsw E today. I know crocodile tears when I see them, professional sympathy, but I don’t really care. Still I won’t abide her letting her lefty politics creep in. I’ll keep going for a while anyway, like I’m talking to myself. Talked about S and D and the past. Trust issues. Sins and harm I’ve done, with sis D too. It’s a heavy load, Jesus help me. Then went shopping alone to Home Goods. Bought new living room, rug, and bathroom, rugs and Halloween ornaments which I will give to the kids in the neighborhood but wanted to own for a minute. Mickey D macchiato was very good today for a change. Ah Retail Therapy!
Almost missed it. Called yesterday morning to find out when it was and they told me 430 today. One more with LCSW on Friday
Lee this am: Everything always flows forward from here into here.
And nowhere else.
So the blinds were installed today couple of hours early took them about 15 minutes. They are the pros. They look good but they certainly are expensive that way, not to do it yourself
S left early this am, taking rte 1 home in order to shop for more yarn Her cc load is way higher than I wish or wish to help pay, desperate earlier contributions
Not wanting to walk today, but finally did after 1 o’clock and the dog park well, white A shopped supermarket.
Cold today. Cloudy now rainy and wind like breath of God rousing one. Slept very late. Not waking really. Hanging out in garage with lights on, Red my little heater. We walked at dog park, dropped off bag of stuff at Goodwill, talked to L —improvement in OH situations— now just waiting for S. Guess I should do more shredding
